I have mislead you all and I apologize.......

Dear blog readers and FSP supporters,

I must apologize to you all now. For months now, since May, I have known that the boy we were committed on Reece's Rainbow was not the original boy listed with RR. I learned his picture had been put with another child's information.

That child, Sasha, was the original Alexander 20 listed on RR over two years ago. He was the boy transferred and not the Alexander we committed to.

In June, I learned that the boy we committed to was still in a baby house/orphanage in his country. This was by divine intervention alone, I stumbled upon his picture in another families blog.

The end of June, I learned he was not truly available for adoption, July 6th this was confirmed to me by Reece's Rainbow. His parents have never terminated their rights to him and, presently, we are trying to see if they will.

Our dossier is in country, we are ready to be submitted and have a travel date issued. We have chosen another child should Alexander not be available. That child is Andriy in 41.

At present time, there is no word from Alexander's parents, indeed they moved away and Social Services are now supposed to be contacting them about releasing him. He has only been in this orphanage for about one year--we do not know if he was reared at home prior to that or not.

Previously, I had been told if we were issued a travel date and there was no answer from Alexander's parents then we would have a full fund (meaning Alexander's fund would transfer to us at that time); however, if we make a decision to file our paper work in Andriy's name right now with no answer still on Alexander that fund does not follow us but our FSP totaling near $12,000 is always ours. 

We are stuck between a rock and a hard place, spiritual warfare is ugly and hard. We cannot commit to Andriy without another $7,000 and at the same time, we have no idea how long we must wait for an answer on Alexander either. If we move forward and later Alexander's family does release him, he will be to "old" per RR standards and he should lose his grant money anyhow when he is placed on the older child page. I have been given conflicting information about how to file one specific piece of paper so we can then be issued an acceptance letter to submit our dossier. Our dossier and homestudy are only good through Decemeber in his country. Time is ticking, our family is ready to adopt.

God has worked AMAZING through this adoption (I sent this to our stateside helper this morning)--"There is SOOO MUCH good that has happened through God in this all. The original Sasha was revealed again and he now has a family coming for him. Kolya was found (through my persistence and digging in my search for Alexander). Kolya is like a little diamond in the rough, so to speak, and he is going to find his family too once he is listed on RR. God has done so much good, He is still doing good. He called us to adopt, something we would have never done on our own. My family was NOT looking to adopt, at all. I truly believe God used Alexander's picture/video, coupled with the story of the original Sasha to soften our hearts to adoption. God then revealed the mix up, redeemed the first Sasha, uncovered Kolya and I believe with everything in me that he is calling us to Andriy."

Please pray for our family---Shawn and I do believe God called us to adopt. We believe we are following His call. We also believe satan does not want these adoptions to happen. I know the donations were made to our FSP on behalf of Alexander--even after I knew of the mix up and his inability to be adopted and for that I apologize.

ETA: Some people have publicly announced it seems as though we have made our decision. Indeed, we have not, we do not know where to go from here. We do not know which path God has set forth before us. We are focusing on that and seeking discernment now. 




"I will go before you and will level the mountains; I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron. I will give you hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the LORD, the God of Israel, who summons you by name." Isaiah 45:2-3 (NIV)