821

We have been so blessed.

I learned today our Tastefully Simple party grew our fund by $45 and has already been deposited in our FSP. Our Avon fundraiser grew our fund by $35 and that has already been deposited in our FSP too. I also learned today our Scentsy Party will grow our fund an additional $75 when Stephanie's commission is paid. I also know our checks are on the way to Reece's Rainbow from Concerts for a Cause in the amount of $1438 as well.

Right now, including these figures, we need just $821 to be back at $20,000 once more. I pray that Monday we know our travel date, Serge has stated he has the letter of invitation to go to the SDA to pick up our SDA appointment on Monday. Monday is a very bittersweet day for me.

Monday, September 5, 1994 around 9:15 p.m. my mom left this life on Earth. She died on Labor day that year, and this year Monday is Labor day as well. September 5th is special to me. I would feel it a blessing from heaven to get our travel date that day.

I was once married on that date, 3 years after mom's passing, I married Tim. My dad never really understood WHY I would get married on the day my mom passed (they had been divorced for 17 years at that time). I tried to explain, it was the one way I could "include" her in it all. Tim and I are not married any longer and I will NEVER regret having married him that day. I would do it all again, the same way, the same day.

So, if we do get our SDA appointment that day; it will be like including mom in this process too. Weird? I don't know, but is how I think. If that is the "support" we are to get, I will take it, gladly and graciously. A present if you will.

When I unexpectedly became pregnant with Jared after a sudden miscarriage, I freaked OUT. I freaked out until I learned my due date. My due date was September 5, 2002. As soon as I learned my due date, I was at peace with the pregnancy and never worried for one minute while I was pregnant with him after that it was as if I knew it would all be fine.

Jared arrived nearly 2 weeks early and I had trouble during my pregnancy with bleeding and passing out; but, still, I knew it would all be just fine because of the date I was given. It was as if I knew mom was happy to have one grandchild in heaven and was watching over this one I was growing within me.

Crazy?

Probably, but that is what I like to think when it comes to that stuff. She's not here. She's not coming back. I've not seen her in my dreams for years....not since Tim and I lived in Greentown, I don't think (save for a bizarre dream this past year). But, if I can feel her from time to time, talk to her, pray to God that I am grateful I will see her again someday--I will take what I can get and be thankful God has blessed me with that too.

So, stay tuned. I hope to share with you all on Monday our SDA date, rejoice that my mom has not been sick for 17 years and mourn her a bit too. I also hope to tell you all about a great fundraiser for another family doing an iPad giveaway for their adoption and a chance to turn $500 into a total of $1,000. Be blessed, thank you all.

If your momma is still with you, give her a hug for me. Here is me and mom in 1979 or 1980.

"I will go before you and will level the mountains; I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron. I will give you hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the LORD, the God of Israel, who summons you by name." Isaiah 45:2-3 (NIV)