One year ago on the other side of the world

I've been off a few days with blogs, sorry...I have failed the 31 for T21 challenge. C'est la vie. My husband reminded me today I am behind on posting.

Shawn, I know you enjoy reading my posts. 

Honey, I hope you can feel my heart and hear my prayers for these children. 

I have something I need to share. Something I must say. My heart is broken. It's been one year since we landed stateside with Jadon Andrew in tow. He's been a part of our family for over a year. He will be 4 very soon.

I should be happy, ecstatic, right? Well, for my family--the 6 of us and our extended family that is actively a part of our lives--I am happy, ecstatic even.

Jadon will never, ever, be without a family. Never. 

Why am I sad? Because on Reece's Rainbow alone there are soooo many orphans (286 at last count in Ukraine alone) and they are waiting. WASTING AWAY. Being thwarted in growth and development all because no one has come for them. Heath is just sitting, waiting, regressing...HE HAS FULL GRANT PEOPLE!!!!! $21, 049.59 and he WAITS....Why???? Why must he wait?

He is 11 years old. He's fought to live for 11 years. 

ELEVEN YEARS

4,207 days exactly

601 weeks in it's totality and he waits 

As a mother, I am tapped, I am worn out. 

I cannot fathom parenting another child.

 I get it, I do. 

I understand being wary, knowing your limitations. 

BUT if God called our family again,

if my husband said, "I know this child here (insert any name) IS our child"

We WOULD go, I might very well lose my mind, 

but I'd follow and pray God would see us through. 

But for those that want to adopt but say "We cannot afford it"...well, that's not an issue here. So, there must be a parent for him, somewhere. Parents for ALL of the children, somewhere, someplace. The children are calling, but no one hears. Their existence matters. Their lives are worth living. They each have potential. 

Failure should not be an option for these children...

Church, we are failing them and it breaks my heart. It truly does. 

 "I will go before you and will level the mountains; I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron. I will give you hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the LORD, the God of Israel, who summons you by name." Isaiah 45:2-3 (NIV)