Preparedness

Anxiety is not fun. Not today, not yesterday. NOT EVER.

My anxiety levels have been very high for awhile now. July 6th was a very bad day for me.

This adoption journey has not been smooth to say the very least. There have been ups and downs and DOWN IN THE DUMPS LOWS.

We are still not running smoothly. Not for my taste anyhow. Too many variables, too many unknowns. Too many questions. Too many doubts. Too many, just TOO MANY.

I have several close friends I share with, but I run to one person, her name is Cathy. I love her. She is my steadfast "sister". The one that will tell me what I need to hear and not what I want to hear.  And she rarely apologizes (I love her for that!). She has suffered with me, cried alongside me, sobbed for the situation and prayed faithfully.

Just yesterday, I told her my anxiety was climbing again and told her again this morning it was hanging over me. She told me to give over to Him and I told her I planned to at church this morning. I could NOT wait to get to church.

The message today?

Enough said, right? The message I needed came loud and clear. God has had "this" all along. He is NEVER out of control. Even if I am out of control, out of mind, out of my heart, laden with anxiety. HE IS NEVER OUT OF CONTROL IN ANY SITUATION.

The word I needed today and communion followed it as well. I needed this today, I need to cling to that promise. We are awaiting the last bit of information we need for our dossier. Immigration approval. Soon, we will be able to travel and bring our child home.

Keep praying, I need the prayers, our family needs the prayers, the child waiting for us needs the prayers. Thank you.

~Christie~ 

"I will go before you and will level the mountains; I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron. I will give you hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the LORD, the God of Israel, who summons you by name." Isaiah 45:2-3 (NIV)