V is for....

Vision

I don't usually look to far ahead in my life. I learned early on that life is short. I don't really see my boys as grown men. I don't have a vision for their future. I just want my boys to be productive members of society, be happy and content with what life has given them, and to be healthy.

I want them to have a home to grow old in (whatever old is...) and a partner to love them. I would love to see all of my boys married, children are optional.

But, right now? Right now, or in the foreseeable future. I want my boys playing in the backyard, chasing bugs and fireflies at night. Sliding down the slide on the jungle gym. Squealing with sheer joy as they swing on the swing set. Hitting balls of the tee or hitting a line drive from a soft pitch. Sweaty heads, dirty hands and worn out bodies ready to crash on their own soft beds with clean sheets and blankets to keep them warm. I want to listen for the pat of heavy feet coming into get mommy when a dream has woke them up. I want meals together at the dinner table, prayers said with love.

I want it for all of my boys. Jared Thomas, Alexander Jacob, Joseph Lee and Jackson Chap.

I cannot wait for the sweet reunion when we bring AJ home. I know he will need time to adjust, but my heart just aches for the visions in my head. I cannot wait to see them realized.

I pray your journey is swift and he is home quickly. Will you join me in that prayer?


For AJ--from mommy--
I long to tuck you in at night
my child who waits for me.
I long to hold you tight
my child across the sea.
I long to feel your hands on my face
my child so far away.
I long to know your voice
my child in my heart to stay.
I long to see your smile
my child who waits for me.
I cannot tuck you in to bed tonight.
Your mother she waits for you.
I cannot hold you tight tonight.
Your mother she waits for you.
I cannot feel your hands on my face.
Your mother she waits for you.
I cannot hear your voice.
Your mother she waits for you.
Thank heaven above,
I can see your smile tonight,
my sweet child that waits for me.