I knew it would.
I wish it would not happen though.
I have twins. I DO! Only, now, no one notices. No one.
Joseph is seen as my baby. "The little one". You know, as in, "How old is the littlest one"? I wish this weren't the case. At a restaurant my sister treated me and the twins to today for lunch, the hostess that sat us said, "I will go ahead and leave these crayons for the little fella. I know he probably won't want them or know what to do with them...but I will leave them here and you can decide what you want to do with them. Okay?"
I said nothing, but my soul screamed he is nearly 3!! THREE!! JOSEPH IS ALMOST THREE!
For some reason, this really stung today. Don't get me wrong this is not the first time someone has said something, but today? Well, today, I just did not want to hear it. I am overly tired, overworked, and feeling genuinely under appreciated lately. And my emotions are a bit raw to say the least.
I have twins! I DO! I wish people still knew that. I loved the curious looks when my boys were tiny. "Are they twins?" (of course they are, they are the same size) was always the obvious question of choice tossed at my by well-meaning strangers. Now, people look at me and probably think, "MY WORD! Doesn't she know what causes that?" I look like I have stair-step children. You know, one born just a year after the other.
I don't want to look like I have stair-steps. I WANT IT TO LOOK LIKE I HAVE TWINS! I HAVE TWINS!! I DO!!
My sister asked on the way home if I thought their twin bond would be stronger because of the Down syndrome. My gut reaction is, "No". Plain and simple. Lord, I hope I am wrong. They are so very different already. But shortly after Geneva asked that question, as we were still driving home, Jackson begins giggling and then Joseph chimes in. Jackson flips his hat off his head and cackles something at Joseph and they are both just laughing like crazy. They did this back and forth amusing of one another for a good 5-10 minutes. So maybe I am wrong. I want to be wrong. Maybe they were showing momma she does have twins...SHE DOES!!!
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