Reflections

Nearly two years have passed since the twins were born. Where has the time gone? My babies who were a month early are now toddlers busy within the world around them. Nothing seems to stop either child from accomplishing what their little minds conjure up.

Jared is gearing up for 1st grade and Joshua will be in Kindergarten this fall. I believe we will put the twins in preschool one day a week and Janae might get to go too but she will go three days a week. Shawn is back to work and I am nearing the end of my schooling (for now). Geneva will also be re-enrolling at Ivy Tech this fall.

Three years ago, I would have never believed my life would be like it is today. Three years ago today, June 20, I closed on my house and was reading myself to move in next month. Three years ago, I was divorced. Three years ago, I was planning on raising my son on my own. Three years ago, I was still employed at Chrysler working as much as I wanted and earning great money. Three years ago, Jared and I walked the acre that is my back yard hand in hand and admired what was 'ours'. Three years ago, I was concerned with me, work, and Jared and nothing more.

Today, my days are filled with concern for my family, my kids, my sister, her kids, my husband, my school, and how to find more hours in the day. My days revolve around physical therapy, doctors visits (for me, Shawn, and all the kids), cooking meals, cleaning house, doing laundry (which is NEVER, EVER done) and trips to the grocery. I can look back now and see how really bland and boring my life was. My days are hectic that is true but even on the days when it seems all I do is holler at someone, I am grateful for all I have been blessed with.

Jared is so very smart and sweet (I just wish he was sweet all the time) but he is getting bigger by the day and before I know it he will be a teenager. Joseph and Jackson are truly amazing. The blessing of watching one twin develop typically and then watching the other twin develop on his own time frame is truly a gift. It is such an eye opener to witness all the little things you take for granted that your children will accomplish and being a stay at home mom this time around has really shown me all I missed when Jared was this age.

I cannot look back with regret; I did what I had to in order to provide for my family at the time. Matter of fact, back then I refused to quit my job and stay home to raise Jared much to the chagrin of his father. In hindsight, I see now I made the correct decision in staying with Chrysler then. If I had not stayed on at Chrysler then, I would have NOTHING that I have now. Chrysler helped me to buy my house, my home. The home that now protects 8 people. What a blessing. So all the working mothers out there doing what you must, don't ever second guess yourself. In time you will see, you are doing the right thing and your family will benefit from it.